As someone who turns into their father when they get mad, I get this. The only thing I can suggest is being more aware of both your feelings, and why you're getting mad. Also, it's not entirely a bad thing to walk away BUT only if you realize you're mad, and that you know you're going to say things you'll regret later. If you need a moment to calm down and understand why both of you are mad, then taking a moment to gather that is fine!

And if you already feel like you are you father, be the better version of him. It's a heavy work in progress, and it's not something that can change over night, but it would be worth it as you wouldn't be hurting your self or others through action/words, no? and if not for yourself or others, do it out of spite. Doing things out of spite and getting better is the best "Fuck you" to anybody, and they can't even say anything about it.

Regardless, I hope you're doing well and do your best in life :]

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R 1 month ago

I've found myself having more in common with my dad as I've grown, and I dislike it. My mother is the opposite of him, very patient and in control of her emotions. She reminds me that a lot of people have impulses to act in negative ways towards others and even ourselves (even her), but that it takes an active effort to decide how we behave. You are not alone and you are not tied down to the behavior of your father. Just remember that it is not supposed to be easy, but the effort you put will make everyone in your life happier, including yourself and your mother. Just walk away when you feel those emotions and come back once you've calmed down, people will understand. That habit will make you a better person. You don't have to be perfect, but always put in the effort to be better. Best wishes.

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anonymous 1 month ago