Long distance troubles.

I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I've been dating a man, my boyfriend, that is one year older than me, and I think he's VERY handsome, honest, real, charming, trustworthy, caring, funny, responsible, loving, and so much more. So things don't get too confusing, we'll call him 'ice'. Ice and I, we've been having a long distance relationship for 2 years now, and we love each other very much. About two months ago on March 27th, it was the day that my uncle was going home since he came to our house to visit us for a week. Every day during this week, we went on morning walks where we just talked about life, problems, upcoming events, anything really, and I was gaining trust from him. On this specific morning before we went on our walk, I was chatting to ChatGPT about if I should tell my uncle that I am in a relationship with some from online, and have been for 2 years now, but I was terrified and scared because I had a feeling he would tell my parents afterwards. During our walk, I didn't say anything about it. I wanted to, but with how hard I tried to pry the information out of me, it just didn't happen. In the afternoon, with around 5-15 minutes before my uncle would get driven by us to the airport, I wanted to tell him about my situation before he left. We were all sitting on the couch, when I tapped his shoulder and asked if I could talk with him privately upstairs, and he agreed to it. Once we got upstairs, I pulled up my journal app I had on my phone to tell him about my situation, because I knew that I wouldn't be able to tell him face to face. I gave him my phone, and he began to read. With every scroll he made, I was shaking, trying not to cry, and I had a gut feeling. Once he finished, he looked at me and asked if I had a picture of him, and I showed him. I showed him the pictures I saved of that man, some notes I wrote about him.. and told him which state he lived in (Ice and I are around 14 hours away, if you were curious). My uncle asked me a few questions about if I knew what Ice looked like, if he knew what I looked like, if that whenever we called that he was the same person (everything was a yes). Finally.. my worst nightmare was arriving.. parents. My uncle told me while I was still teary-eyed, feeling like a murderer or criminal, and having this wretched feeling inside my stomach, that my parents should know about this. I wanted to refuse, and I did, but my uncle insisted. He went downstairs and called for my parents to talk with them in the car quickly. Both of them were very confused, not knowing what would await them in a few minutes. Once they came back, we were going to head to the airport soon and let's just say.. that car was dead silent. My dad didn't take a single look at me or talk whenever I walked past him, and it felt like I was a disappointment right then and there. The day after all of this, my dad woke me up from calling my name at around 9:30 in the morning, telling me how we were going to fix my phone. I woke up, knew I was done for, and followed him to the car. Once we were there, we were talking about the situation (I don't remember too much of what we specifically said, but there was one thing he asked me about if people were harassing me, bullying me, forcing me to send nudes, if I have sent nudes, and etc. {don't worry, I did not send anything like that to anyone, and I never would. Even if they are my significant other} ), and then he was trying to figure out about my contacts. A quick newsflash, I have an online game that I play and since chatting gets messy sometimes with tagging and things, people asked me if I could add their number since chatting would be easier. I have many online friends, and most of them were in my contacts. One by one, my dad read me each and every name, and I told him if they were my friends from school, church, online, or Ice. Currently, I only have family and friends left in my contacts.. and I've been feeling extremely lonely.. bored.. and just depressed. My father said that my relationship with Ice could not continue, and would have to end.. and I was devastated. On that day and the next, I was bawling my eyes out and lying on the floor, praying, wanting to hurt myself & disappear, and hated everything that I did.
It is currently May 14th, 2026, and I'm still with this man, even with the circumstances. We can't waste 2 years that we shared with each other and just shove it down the drain. I was coming up with the fact that we would have to break up.. but neither of us want it. The love is too strong and the memories are too clear. He told me that he would never regret anything as well. Him asking me to be his girlfriend, going through the struggles, everything we've been through together on this journey. We both still talk with each other, but it's more limited since I don't have is number and can't text him on a daily basis anymore. I really miss him.. so very much.. and I wish I could go back in time and rethink about the consequences that would've affected me. I can't tell whether telling someone (my uncle) was good or bad.. but I guess I'll have to live with it for now. (I also think it was a bad idea because Ice warned me a few days before.. but I didn't listen.. and my parents are also strict).

(Leave any comments down below if you'd like to. Some ideas I'd like to have opinions or answers on is whether you guys think that this relationship could still have a chance in the future, or if we think it's more.. done. Thank you for reading this heck long of a rant.. so take a cookie with you :) *hands you a cookie* Enjoy!!)

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anonymous Relationships May 14, 2026 at 10:37 pm 0 0