insanely emotionally unavailable

heyy if u know me its so painfully obvious that i wrote this to the point its kinda pathetic
also from someone elses words apparently im insanely emotionally unavailable soo um

anyways talking about my feelings makes me feel so fucking sick to the stomach, showing my feelings makes me so fucking sick to the stomach, and people worrying about how i feel makes me feel so fucking sick to the stomach. expressing was never easy for me, whether it was expressing them properly, or at all. and that makes me really like to dumb myself down into this THING that cannot be taken seriously and cannot take serious things seriously-- makes me feel better laughing emoji

whenever im in a serious situation i will either stall and stall and stall until the guilt finally makes me or i just ignore whatever tf is going on entirely. because i suck at that kinda thing !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i never ever had to be involved and responsible of dramas and complications in friendships because growing up, I NEVER HAD TO!!! barely having any close friendships when i was really young made it sooosooso hard for me to bond and connect with friends and romantic partners in a healthy way!!

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romantic partners? romantic partners. i cannot show romantic affection to the people im supposed to without cringing or being extremely uncomfortable (maybe im just a nonchalant alpha prince /JOKE). respect my boundaries! bitch! asshole! giggles and rubs belly (targeted)

you act like youre soooo emotionally intelligent for getting pissed of at someone for calling someone else annoying(??even when they literally are) but it turns out you cant even follow the simplest of boundaries of someone that has communicated and expressed it MULTIPLE times

midkey hope you dont find this or that anyone i know finds it but you most likely will haha
im an asshole when im pissed off
hey sorry for attacking u btw

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anonymous Other October 14, 2025 at 9:02 am 1 0