Freedom.

I feel stuck. Stuck in this.. pit of a hole. The hole of work, sameness, forever lasting-ness. It's like a look that will never end, it'll just keep on going. I've had ideas about running from home to get out of this place.. but it's very risky. I have questions about how I would do it, and when would be a good time to? My family has my location.. emergency contact.. literally everything. If I leave to go somewhere like inside our garage, I have to specifically tell them where I'm going. I can't play outside by myself if one of them is sleeping, and it's just a lot. I also can't travel. "You can't go to international".. you can't steal and shatter my dreams and desires. If you never got to do these things in your family.. it doesn't mean you have someone else, let alone your own child, go down the same path as you and suffer. I want to be able to see cities, wander, and explore new places I've never been to before.. but no. I'm 'too' young, they 'need' me, they can't trust me, I'm me. If the costs for the trips are so expensive, I'll work and pay for it myself. I don't want to be stuck in the same place for all my years of living on this here Earth. I feel like a bird in a cage. I can only fly around in a small amount of space, while people watch me curiously or hawk-eye me.. when I all want is freedom. Why can't I have that.? Am I not good enough for you..? Do I disappoint you? Can I ever make you proud of me or my achievements that I've worked myself off on constantly just for a "that looks nice!" or "good work!"?

I guess not.

(Please leave any comments below for any advice.. I'll take any ideas of yours into consideration for my situation! Stay strong you all.)

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