I wish I was healthy...mentally and physically

English isn't my first language, but I'm trying to vent my feelings.

I've been bullied my entire life. I hate my life because I have a terrible life, i don't have rainbows and flowers in my life. Because of this, I'm having a lot of bowel/stomach problems right now. I don't know how I'm going to solve them or how to get rid of them at all. I don't know if someone has ever been healthy again or if they js died like that or that problem came back...I'm completely overwhelmed by how I smell, whether I stink, whether people can smell it, and also because I have gas/flatunce and constantly bad breath. It's really getting to me. I have this constant worry when I'm outside or with someone that I might stink, and so on. I try to smell it. It's so embarrassing and so uncomfortable to talk about it or discuss/work on it with someone. I just want to die because too many people know about my personal problem and use it against me to put me down. I'm just a person who wants to live a normal life without worries. I experience a lot of anxiety from time to time and get stressed, overwhelmed, or nervous very easily. I can't stand it anymore; it's so hard to live knowing that someone knows too many things about me and tells them, laughs about them, and gossips. It honestly affects my whole life, whether it happens in the past or the future, it's destroying me. It stops me from doing so many things. I'm just unhealthy and have a lot of stomach problems. It's embarrassing when I smell bad or when my farts smell bad, or when someone in my class makes fun of it. They say "eww" and often ask who smelled bad or who pooped. It's so embarrassing and humiliating. They want to humiliate me.

I wanted to do sui€ and I never did cuz I need to solve it. But there aren't many opportunities to find the solutions. I'm going to die from embarrassment and shame. Its so humiliating and sad. Im sad. I want to be alone and cry cuz I'm stinky and im insecure of that, that i stink. Im stunky soo...

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Dontcare Body May 10, 2026 at 9:16 am 0 0