Shitty father

Im the eldest daughter in the family, and you know the saying that they get the father's personality. Well, thats right. I got my dads shitty attidude and quick temper. Combined with my big sense of justice, imagibe how i feel in my house when he's home. He's unfair and unkind. He wants our family to go to my grandparents home every week just so that my sick grandmother could see us. Evry week okay?? Meanwhile we see my moms side of the family twice a year. I cant even go and hang out with my friends because of that. And whenever i just want to defend my damn siblings who did nothing wrong, im the one who's at fault. He'll guilt trip me and ask what we wouldve done if he went and died (as he is the main source of income ofc) he talks that he was more helpful around the household when he was younger, while i do nothing. But he was a failing student, i was the top of my batch. I have to keep up my grades and keep up with school alongside regular life. How could he not see im already trying?? Oh right! Coz he's not fucking around to find out. He thinks he knows eeeeverything about me when he knows jack shit. This extends to the rest of his family except his other sister who's my fav aunt. Criticism here, complain there. I just turned 16 ffs, and the amount of times ive thought of kms is awful if it werent for the fact my mother would suffer. Im just really really fucking tired dammit. Do i deserve this life?

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anonymous Home October 25, 2024 at 3:58 am 0 1