Not like others my age

I'm "young" and never really got to feel it until recently. I'm about 30 and my early life was 1000X harder than I ever see my adult life being.

Pretty much I didn't get to be like most other people my age. I didn't fuck around, drink, do drugs, or get into a car wreck from being careless. I didn't get to play high school drama due to the actual shit I had to worry about. Don't vape either. Basically all of the retard rights of passage I never did.

I also don't get McDonalds every day or do what all of these other people do around me to make themselves poor. Maybe because I was used to being poor and on the edge for so long.

So, it's like things have gotten more stable. I see the toll vices have taken on the idiots I'm around. I don't regret not being a retard. It sucks I have to count my blessings that oh my God I can afford $20 worth of puzzles and work one without someone fucking with it. But I am glad I appreciate what I have.

I guess I just wonder when and if I'll ever be around people my age who match my maturity.

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anonymous Other March 14, 2025 at 2:28 pm 1 0