my mood was fine

my mood was fine but whenever im around this dude i feel like hes leeching off my energy and draininng it until i feel so empty arpund him that and his inability to see his own issues and his inability to read the room and anything he ever has done wrong as being wrong is a big problem he has. idc if hes on a spectrum the spectrum he is on is asshole level. only cares if the conversation is centred around himself if its me he doesnt care.

same with all the ex friends i have that felt like they didnt really accept me the way i was and i dont really know what i was doing that was wrong because it just felt like people used me to fill the void in that moment they didnt really want me around in the long run. so now i dont believe that i have any chance with anyone anyway. relationships are bogus and only happen to those who fit the perfect ideal of someone else and even then its rare. u still going to have ur flaws at the end of the day might as well accept them tbh. im no changing myself for nobody if others dont like me id rather they just say so. im tired of being fooled around bu ppy thinking so and so will like me oh wait no they wont cause theres nothing likeable about me if other people have problems including me in anything then so will the same people and others again? i just reallt dont care these days about forming anymore connections if its going to be another dead end or if it will turn sour or just non existant cause people will be in something only if it benefit themselves.

i think im mentally worn out from being strung along this long by fake ass bitches and people im supposed to trust and have their support but i dont feel it?

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anonymous Relationships January 15, 2025 at 1:35 pm 1 1