its like i talk to the air

and only some people reply or respond whilst others switch their ears off and show no interest in me and dont seem to care if im there or not. so yes dad i do feel like i should just end it myself because clearly i dont mean nothing to any of them. he always derails how i feel and deflects responsibility that hes messed it up for me in my younger years now i cant be honest about how i feel cause he dont want no responsibility for it. im tired of this reality. i love my cat tho but even hes old so like whats the point eventually the cat and dog will pass then hopefully i pass away soonish before im 50 or around then. i really dont care either way im just done with this tone deaf man who doesnt accept that i have feelings he doesnt like and its funny because he always tries and fails to comfort me yet hes the very reason im in this feeling ive been in for years. nothihg seems to improve for me personally whilst others get to have close friends and peopoe who love and care about them yet i dont get no partner no friendships i can vent too because everyone seems to shut their ears off when im talking to them.

i already feel like a freaking invisible wall i talk to some peopoe and often all i get is a) interrupted, talked over and b) very uncaring responses that tells me they dont care long enough for them to listen. this dude cannot read the room either, hes so bad at recognising that he might be part of the problem here. i could tell it to him but he would have an adult tantrum cause hes narcissistic who doesnt see that he is narcissistic. i really do not feel valued by anyone rn. everyone else would honestly be better off without me trying to burden them with my non existent life or social life thats never existed anyway. it feels like i talk to the air as well.

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anonymous Other January 15, 2025 at 1:23 pm 0 0