memory loss I m a teenager

i've noticed in the past year or two i've slowly been developing worse memory. like i'll forget that i was asked to do something, or about a project's due date, or an entire conversation. sometimes i look back at old dms or old rants on my phone and remember huge events that happened in my life that i just completely forgot about. times my mom's kicked us out of the house, that ticket to that musical. but it's mostly things that i seem to want to forget. like chores, assignments, traumatic events, due dates. although, it's not like i activly try to forget, it just happens.

i don't know if it's because of the stress, maybe it's become too much for my brain and it's just trying to escape. maybe i just have a shitty memory. but it's really fucking up my life. i don't know what i'm supposed to do. it's like my mind is shutting out everything it doesn't want to deal with, everything it wants to forget and other stuff is getting forgotten along with it.

and my mom only cares about what i haven't done. i've been kicked out of the house for not doing my chores, yelled at for not keeping up at school. if i fall behind any more i'm afraid i'll never be able to catch up. i'm really fucking scared.

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renn Other August 09, 2021 at 3:04 pm 0 0