I want to give up

I hate trying, its so stupid especially in a world like this.

My grades are dropping and I can't tell why. My friend groups are growing further and further away from me. I'm always ignored in everything I do. The one thing that I'm good at, cadets, has been a shithole for me. No matter how hard I try, no matter what I do, no matter the circumstances, all I get is nothing.

I asked a girl that I knew from my friend group the other day. She agreed and it sure gave me hope, hope that didn't last long. She's practically the only thing that's keeping me alive yet she ghosted me and now I can't even talk to her in real life. Everything that I'm looking forward to is slowly disappearing, my family isn't helping, my friends are leaving and my future is dwindling.

Whatever I do I hit a roadblock. I just want to give up, give up on school, give up on my friends, give up on my stupid cadets and live the remainder of my life in happiness. I'd rather be happy and broke than sad and broke.

I try my ass off, I work my life away and all I get? Nothing.

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anonymous Other June 12, 2024 at 10:09 pm 0 0