I HATE BEING UNDER APPRECIATED

MY GOD!!! I can't even tell anyone this because it seems childish and embarrassing. I started writing fanfiction in middle school and I just finished my first year of college. I put a lot of effort into my stories, and I have always wanted to share my thoughts on the media with other fans. Lately, none of my stories have been doing well. Comparison is the thief of joy, sure, but it's disheartening to see people write a short story and get praise, but my 20k word story gets a few comments. I have also started receiving hate comments and I'm not sure why. I also feel under-appreciated at my job; I've been working as a dietary aide for the past two years. I am rarely late, I rarely call out sick, and I always find coverage for my shifts. I have only received praise from residents at the senior center, but I have never once been nominated for employee of the month, and I have never been offered a promotion to shift lead. Like everyone says, comparison is the thief of joy, but it sucks to see people get promoted above me when they're newer, and it sucks even more to see others get praise when I feel like I deserve it, too. I have over a thousand followers on my fandom-specific twitter account (not calling it X...), but those followers don't translate to active readers. I just want to wake up to a new comment every morning, but it's been days since my last one. I'm sure a lot of my feelings come from loneliness and wanting connection through my art, but the feeling of being unappreciated is affecting my mental health. I don't feel inspired to write or keep up with my social media account, but the size of my following makes me feel obligated. Venting about the subject does nothing. I get told the same ten things and I only feel worse. I just want to complain. I feel like I deserve more recognition.

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anonymous Other April 29, 2025 at 2:21 pm 0 0