i dont have a right to hurt like this

i dont even know why i think i have the right to vent and mope . i dont. i hurt people so much
i just want to go back home and be so peaceful and in my own body
i truly had nothing to fear back at home
id take chemical burns over this anyday. i just have this endless cycle of hurt people, long for SHing, missing all the intellect and great achievements i once had, missing him even though hes literally right by me 23/6, missing people that make me really goddamn mad anyway, and genuinely trying my best not to hurt someone or something.
do you honestly think my sadism is a phucking joke? are all of you dumb??? nobody thinks theyd do it until they actually do it.

god god god god god i just want to go back. i dont really fw anybody i have left (i do mean that fully) except him and my headmates and im praying SO hard that 2028 will be my time but i dont know anymore.

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subspace t. mine Other July 16, 2025 at 3:55 am 0 0