I am so happy

I love being outdoors and seeing birds and hearing bird calls. I love my cats, I love that none of them are hateful bitter cats like my grandma's cat was, just attention whores. I love to sit out by the bathroom and just listen to the noise coming out of the jungle. I love to drink new drinks. I will try to get back into programming because I used to love figuring out new things in there. I love that I have two hours on workdays and four hours on weekends to fit it in. I love to be entertained by comedians, when there is a new picture release from a favorite comedian I get so giddy and excited to watch it. When I hear a bird call I know outside I run out there and look for it. I am often confused by what I find, but that's o.k. I love that I've been able to pay off half of my car. I love that even though I almost crash every tenth time I merge on to the highway I have a lot of opportunities to learn how to do it safely and the patience to try new things, and some day I will be a safer driver. What the hell, I am going to seek out information this morning. It's an emergency priority to seek out safer driving habits. I love that I was recently exposed to the concept of 'flying monkeys' and identified right away that I was doing that for someone, when it felt so weird and gross at the time, and now I see what was happening, all in good time. I love that I live in the same house as a trained chef. His meals are always five star. I love that I have time to pick up the slack and do dishes. I love to wake up and saw wood and pull vines. I love to lay down at the end of the day and sleep. I love to play cards with my mom and grandma. I like bowling. I want to take everyone out bowling. There is no reason to feel empty or useless. I loved to visualize myself choking out with a jacket pull string or dropping into an oak crotch the wrong way. I love to imagine myself gouging my face out with a broken dish. There is no reason to do that. All the good things will come back.

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