too much

bit of a sad one to be honest so read at your own peril.
it's Christmas, supposed fest of love and family, and I've never felt more lonely.
my grandpa might not live past new years, I feel dread every day to go into work, can't focus on my studies because of that and while my friends get all the updates, their comments and 'advices' still aren't helping at all. I'm so fed up of ungrateful bosses, pushing my education to the side and an ex that I would love to quit contact with but can't cause it's the same friend group.
haven't been this emotionally drained and exhausted for a while. Tomorrow we celebrate Christmas as a family and I don't know how the fuck I'm supposed to deal with that. There's no real solution here and that lack of control is just really fucking frustrating.

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anonymous Other December 23, 2025 at 11:29 am 2 0