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Nakakapagod na ma-feel na I’m always stuck in this situation—like I just want to experience normal things with my friends, pero lagi akong napipigilan. It hurts seeing them go out all the time while I’m always the one left behind, even though I really want to go. I don’t even say everything; sometimes I pretend na tinatamad lang ako when in reality iniisip ko yung gastos or responsibilities ko sa bahay, but it still doesn’t seem enough for them to let me go kahit minsan lang. What makes it harder is feeling like I’m not being heard—whenever I try to explain, it comes off as talking back, and they always have a reason for everything. I know I’m still living under their roof and I’m not independent yet, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have the right to feel this way. I feel jealous, hurt, and honestly just tired, because I just want to experience my teen life kahit paminsan-minsan, but it feels like I’m always missing out.

Ang sakit na sa huli, ako pa yung napilitang magsorry kahit ako yung nasaktan, tapos parang nabura lahat ng ginawa kong tama sa bahay dahil lang sa isang nangyari. Nakakapagod isipin na parang ang nakikita lang nila sakin yung mali, hindi yung effort ko, yung pag-aadjust ko, at yung mga times na iniisip ko sila bago sarili ko. Parang kahit anong gawin kong mabuti, isang pagkakamali lang, yun na agad yung nagde-define sakin sa paningin nila. Naiinvalidate ako, parang hindi ako nakikita o naririnig, at ang hirap tanggapin na ako pa yung kailangan magpakumbaba para lang matapos yung issue kahit hindi naman ako yung may kasalanan.

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Alexa Home April 30, 2026 at 4:56 pm 0 0