Nothing really

A friend of mine invited me to sit at their table, normally during my free periods I just do work or read or go on my phone so I was hesitant but I didn't want to be rude. So I sat with that friend and their friends. They seemed funny maybe a little wild. I think they care about each other, maybe they don't. But they act like they do and they know what to say and they're a little gross. That's probably a mean thought, considering they acted nice enough towards me. I still think they are. They seem to have their own clique or something. They seem to think they're the exception, as most people do. They laugh at others occasionally and make some crude jokes or just say ridiculous things. I know it's not the best, that's not to say they're bad. I'm sure the way they say things isn't really harmful. They say things I think most people say, rumors and annoying things that happened and how they hateee so and so cause one reason or another. I do want them to like me. I want to fit in. I don't say much, nod along, laugh when they laugh. I think I'll continue to do that. It makes me blend in. I like that. To go unnoticed is good. When I was alone I stood out a bit. I wish it was my actual friends but this'll do. And I still have the one friend, they include me and talk about my real friends. I think this has happened to me before. It feels like dejavu. I wish I could experience all the great friendships I've had all over and I could be in a group with them, everything would be nice, id remember it like i remember them. Of course everything would be way simpler if I just had some classes or even a period with my actual friends! Ugh!!!

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anonymous Friends April 30, 2026 at 11:50 pm 0 0