My mother just caught me masturbating

Well she caught me after the fact, this the first time, but I was still laid out open and I hadn’t cleaned up yet. She really caught me slacking cause I normally clean up immediately after, but time I was like lemme lay here for a couple of MINS cause everyone should be FUCKING ASLEEP or at least minding their own… And like I'm not embarrassed but more so upset cause she’s always fucking barging in like ugh, like why can’t you leave me alone its 1 AM! And when I say I don’t feel like coming home, she don’t understand why… Yes, its your house but like wtf my dad knocks on every door, and he pays the freaking mortgage. Now you’re disappointed in what you saw, but who told to just be busting into rooms… like what do you be looking for…. THIS?! Is this what you wanted to see. Now she wants to have a talk, ask me if i’m okay, why I resort to these things. Again its 1AM I’m not tryna have a therapy session like ugh. I just wanted to sin and get it over with, I be tempted okay, not my finest moments!

I think its more upsetting cause I feel like i can never have peace in this house and because it could’ve easily been prevented if I had just cleaned up immediately after like I normally do, but like damn can I catch a freaking break in this house and it’s overwhelming sometimes, someone always wants to bother someone jeez. She could’ve easily just gone downstairs like what is you looking for at 1 AM you know i’m in the room, you know I’m not sleep carry on. I don’t need to be checked up on… if not for the holidays coming up would’ve just stayed in my apt

I just know tm she gone wanna talk and be like… well if had a gf I wouldn’t need to be doing this blah blah blah, you’re at the age for marriage, mid 20’s?!? Nah im good. You don’t need to be doing this, God does not like it. Yea yea I know okay, but sometimes I be stressed/tempted/or have urges okay! I know its a sin i’m struggling with, plus gf’s don’t just fall off trees, I got trust issues thanks to my life trauma, so dating ain’t easy, and I ain’t into hoeing soooooo……… Anywho these are things I don’t wanna talk with you about!!!! Ughhh

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