LUSTED BUT NOT LOVED

All the people i have ever met have always claimed to love me but i know they only ever lusted over me for i have seen how they loved others like they were some divine objects
do u know what it does to a person who had do a lot to get 1% of the love others pour for others for just existing today i've had enough few weeks ago my best friend gave me his first kiss coz he was damn sure he'd stay single forever and i have been asking him coz it was my thing of taking all my best friends first kisses but this one had escalated to flirting and all and today i find out he had loved this girl very deeplyy he has been ranting about it to me for the whole night while im holding my tears coz y did he kiss me if he loved her that much y does he say things thatll make me fall for him when he already fell for someone else what hurts more is he is oblivious to this all y does this always happen to me all my exes have told me they loved me for the way i was with them while they loved other people for just being themselves for just existing what am i a whore? y does this happen to me all the time

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anonymous Crushes March 15, 2025 at 2:23 pm 1 0