Loneliness after a breakup

I dont really know where to start writing, but I'll give it a go anyways. Just over a week ago me and my girlfriend broke up. It was "mutual" both of us claiming we still wanted to be friends but we didnt want to drift into enemies. I felt wrong though. Coming to the understanding that the person you've loved for years is gone and you just have to be friends now has been hard. Adding on to the fact that messages i once recieved rescinded into nothing. I though for being friends we sure don't talk alot. And then i saw her in person at a group of friends, i said hey to her, but to my suprise i wasn't met by anything, just coldness and the change of a topic. My existence was ignored. The most challenging aspect was talking to other people. I still really haven't. I feel like i truly only have two real friends, and they are fairly recently made friends at that. Loneliness. It eats at me everyday. Its like the idea of a silent scream. I go through my day looking at friend groups or talking to my own and just thinking i wish i wasnt alone. I can never truly feel in the moment. And im still grappling with that everyday. Trying to understand how i fit into life is almost incomprehensible to me. Maybe ill give future updates as i continue to reflect.

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Micah Relationships April 14, 2026 at 1:18 am 1 0