judgement day with crush

so I have this kind of ongoing romance with my crush. So she is kind of cute works with me we are both carers. No I am not gay! fuck! I am 6"4, tall, big cock, blue eyes, you know muscly guy go to gym. So okay I hate that I need to say not gay fyi but every gay carer hits on me so I need to say it. Okay. so lets call my crush jasmine. So Jasmine is a very sweet girl and so she and i have been flirting since april or march this year.... I know its a super long time but we only see each other like once a month or every 2 months sometimes other times once a week depends. So its kind of hard. Anyway so I have decided at the christmas party I am going to try to ask her out finally. So she obviously wants to fuck me I want to fuck her but we kind of just haven't done anything yet. I am a little nervous to be honest because she is really beautiful and sweet. I have never dated a girl who was like wife material like her before I mean I have dated alot of women but most weren't that attractive or if they were they were kind of skanky. So Jasmine is a bit different. Jasmines mum and sister come across to me as a little wild but she is like the sweet, innocent one in the family who is a little embarrassed by her mum and sister being like that but also kind of secretly has the same animalistic desires... except until now they have been unexplored... that is where I come in... so I have decided I am going to be her boyfriend I am going to explore all her desires and make her my wife because she isn't a whore but she has you know a few desires. Okay so as I said we have chatted for a while but only at work she will come sit beside me I don't ask her but it is welcome for sure. And so okay then we chat we have kind of started to become close I feel, she never speaks to anyone except me at work men or women, neither do I. We confide things in each other which could even get us in trouble at work, we trust each other, we flirt, so okay that is going on but I just am super nervous. I have lost 38kg the past 4 years or so. I am currently starting to shred like I have a good body now but I used to be overweight... but now I am fit except I don't have the confidence yet still to believe in myself like for sure it has improved but its not there yet. If she says no its going to destroy my confidence and I am going to want to quit my job. And to make it all worse I used to be long term unemployed and I studied at university for years I got postgraduate education so it was basically no money for years and I had limited success with women then like had some not always. But then I got fat it just was this perfect storm to destroy my confidence and I was so broke. so in 1.5 weeks I got the christmas party our first kind of non work little event where yes it is a work party but its a party so we can socialise more than usual nobody interrupting us for meetings and so on we can just talk.... that is the hardest part finding that time. So now we got 3 hours. I am hoping then I can use it to spend some time with her then ask her to lunch or dinner or something and then we can move towards being an actual couple, meet outside work and course have sex. I just hope she likes me in that way because she obviously enjoys my company its a question of if its as a friend or more. I feel its more but with a girl until she says yes its not clear cut.

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anonymous Relationships November 19, 2025 at 10:24 pm 0 0