I have no purpose.

I have no reason to live. To start off, I'm a terrible human being, even when I try to tell myself I'm not. I won't get into that too much, but what do I have to live for? People always say to think about the people that would miss you when you're gone, but in my opinion, using that to get people to stay is a bit selfish. Why should I care about what you'll feel after I die? I think I should just do what's right for me, and not for you. If there is a heaven or a hell, I'm completely content with going to the latter, as I'm accepting the fact that I don't deserve to even see the gates of the other one. I seriously don't care.
, as long as I don't have to spend my time being plain useless on this earth. I don't have a due date, but whenever I want, I'll end it all. Obviously I'm a little scared, but that's only the pain part of it. Death is either scary because you don't know what's on the other side, or because you're scared of the pain. I'll just have to make it painless, as I seriously don't care what happens to me after I die, I just hate pain. I want to be forgotten forever, and I'm glad that's a possibility.

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Zye Other November 19, 2025 at 10:24 pm 0 0