is this something a kid was supposed to understand

why are my parents so mean. why do they hit me, expect from me, manipulate me, and trashtalk me. im trying so hard for you guys.

i just want a healthy relationship with my mom.

i try so hard to take care of my oldest and youngest brotjer. cant you see that im trying? i try so hard on my school, meanwhile theyre on their phones, i try to clean the house, get good grades, use my manners, be kind, be patient but just why cant you understand. "I never knew there werent ever any signs" THERE WERE SO MANY

Lile the cuts on my arm i never bothered to cover, you never looked at the cuts. How lifeless i looked when i wanted to kill myself. EVEN AS A LITTLE KID I JUST WANTED TL DIE BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING

I HATED IT WHEN YOU YELLED AT ME, CUSSED AT ME, HIT ME, CURSED ME. IM TRYING SO HARD BECAUSE YOU SAID YOU WISHED YOU JUST LEFT ME OR NEVER HAD ME. im trying to give ypu a reason to not think that cause it hurts so much. i hated it when my mom would go out at nigjt to drink with her friends and come back in the morning at 2 am and we were just watching tv.

IM SO DAMN TIRED.

when i was 9 i got groomed online. I already knew what sex was. idk why i forgot. the guy was acting nice to me then when my friend who was older than me like in their teenage years disconnected he asked "do you wanna have sex? please baby please???" I hated it so much. after that i had nightmares for months about people having sex.

then now im 13 im going into highschool im so scared i dont wanna get bullied like i did when i was alittle but younger. i hate my pimples i hate my body. sometimes i do look pretty but why does everyone keep calling me lesbian? its been going on for years so ofc i cant help but get tired of it.

i just wanna die painlessly. but i cant find out how. please help me. im genuijely cryijg. please hug me someone.

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J Other May 20, 2026 at 10:45 pm 0 0