im tired of being surrounded around problems

Everyday just seems like a challenge, something to overcome. Another problem to chase another problem to fight, another bill to pay, another challenge, another thing for me to fix with myself. Just constant problems in every aspect, everything is so hard, nothing is easy everything is difficult or impossible. I'm actually very tired and not happy, not happy atall. Wake up anxious, go to bed anxious in between the day im lucky if i don't get another request on something to do or something to change or something i'm supposed to do but have not done or did not do correctly. I'm just frustrated, even resting and having days off is not pleasurable. Everything i used to enjoy doing i almost despise cause the fun and life from it all has just been sucked out of it/me. I'm just so tired and fed up and frustrated, every moment is surrounded with managing emotions, doing the right thing. Considering what this person or that person would think, at the same time i do not want to be alone which is just a mind fuck. I wish i could scream and say just leave me the fuck alone but that has not even made it better because i am miserable alone. I feel so helpless feel like i constantly need all these people supporting me and i cant stand on my own but hate even needing them like what the hell is actually going on, its too much I just need a bloody break from it all. Like hibernate me, thats the kind of rest i need

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jesus Other March 15, 2026 at 9:22 pm 0 0