I want to be listened to by him

Why can’t you just listen? I love you and yet recently I’ve been so angry with you, I know we’re young but you won’t grow up you don’t seem to care half the time when there’s things happening in the world and I just can’t tell if we’re too different. Idk why it’s been like this this last week where I’m irritated and I feel awful for it but I wish it seemed like you’d listen, you usually do and usually I feel so great around you but why not now? I love you I really do and yet here I am in bed wanting to cry because I feel ugly and lazy and you just tell me to have “good vibes” and that good days are ahead of us and saying we can hang out tomorrow but what if I don’t want to? What if I don’t want to be stuck in a house it feels like you don’t listen to the fact I want to go on hikes or just go out instead of being lazy and sitting somewhere. I tell you I want to get more fit and I don’t feel pretty and I feel lazy and like I’m eating bad when I barely eat at all and you just tell me “don’t do this, I know you’ve had a rough last week because of me but I thought hanging out today would make you feel better.” I just want to feel like I can talk to you I know it’s been a lot this last week and I’m sorry I’m really trying but idk what I’m going through it could be another damn episode but I just want support. I know it’s hard I know it’s not fair to you but your my boyfriend why can’t I just talk to you about it, why does it feel like I have to hide it. I keep wanting to cry and I keep thinking about how it may feel to relapse but I have to stay strong or else you’ll yell at me for it, not crying but just everything else. Why can’t you just let me talk for a moment, I don’t want to bring you down but I just want to talk to someone.

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anonymous Relationships July 14, 2026 at 10:25 pm 0 2