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I don't get it. Why do my siblings get all the attention and love? Like my brother wanted something that costs 200 and she bought it for him without a second thought. My sister wanted to go out with her friend to eat after school and my mom allowed, even giving her money. My younger brother wanted to buy new toys and she allows him. But when I want to buy a small treat that is less that $10 and i get scolded for wasting money? When get back my report slip and get As, Bs and Cs, I get scolded and ignored for a whole week and can't go out for lunch after school and if my siblings fail a subject she would just comfort them and tell them to work harder. Sometimes, I just want to go out with my friend to eat and catch up, she says I go out with my friend too much and that is why I got so bad for my exams. Whenever I leave my stuff on the table, she would ask my siblings to throw them away, even if its my school worksheets. And she still says that she is not biased and its because I am not as well behaved. But i always get awards in school and practice my instruments for 1 hour at home. And my siblings do not even need to. My siblings can take naps if they are tired and if I do, its because I slept late and she will lock me out of my room. I just became a teenager and I have to go through all this? She says that its my fault and calls me useless, stupid, she even scolds me, wishing I was never born or I should go die. When my teachers ask if I am ok, I just say I am fine because my mother would tell the teacher I am just attention seeking girl since young so its practically useless. My dad is useless in all this, if my mom gets pissed, he would also get pissed and go drinking and smoking with his friends. When she scolds me I just wish I am deaf and can't feel. I cant do anything about it. I just wish I had a day I didn't have to live with them.

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