I think i resent my parents

ive been thinking recently and i realized that some people have never been hit in their lives. Like, never. it makes me feel jealous of them, because they have never felt what it feels like to be hit. i dont know why this made me so emotional but being hit feels different than having a bruise, etc. there are people out there who have never felt that pain. My parents hit me growing up but some people never got hit by another human being. Thats crazy to think abt tbh. good for them. I think my parents fucked me up mentally. They fucked up my brother even more. I feel angry whenever my parents ask me why my brother turned out like that. Its because of you. All of it is because of you. They ask me to help him but all i can think about is how bad i feel for him. I wish i could have done something. I think i could never raise a child. I would never bear one. I know that my parents were stressed but why did you have to take it out on me. I didnt ask to get hit. Just talk to me. But when you talk to me it hurts even more. All you do is call me useless. You yell at me and curse at me. I never did anything wrong. I was a good kid until you fucked me over. All i remember doing as a kid was apologizing over and over again. It messed with me so bad. I dont think ill ever recover. I will never function like a normal human being. Deep down i will always hate you. Deep down i am so glad that i go to a top college thousands of miles away. I want you to think about what you did to me. I want you to think about what you did to that little girl. How could you beat her and demean her? I want you to see my brother turn out exactly like me. I will always resent you.

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Jackie Home October 26, 2024 at 2:59 am 1 0