I'm stupid lol

this girl I've liked for a long time but haven't gotten the chance to tell her I like her yet is always dating someone. I think she liked me when we first started talking but I only wanted to be friends with her at that time because things just weren't right and they still aren't in both of our lives so she gave up and lost interest. we're still really great friends though and we consider each other our best friends, but now I'm feeling lost. she's always dating someone and breaking up with them after a while and then getting into another relationship a month later it's kind of a problem in my eyes but whatever. she started dating someone recently. I have a bad habit of stalking the social media of people I meet because I want to know more about them and I don't know if spotify is considered a social media app but I checked her profile and saw that she created a new playlist a few days ago. it was all love songs and there were a couple in there that I remember she had explicitly told me before reminded her of our relationship. we don't talk everyday anymore and I kind have of wait for her to message me back so I was feeling excited about everything for the past few days but today she messaged me and was telling me how well it's going with this person. I realized that playlist was not for me. it was for them. I thought it was because why else would she put songs that she considered "ours" on there. maybe I'm just stupid or maybe she's doing this on purpose and playing with my feelings I don't know. I don't know if I should keep up the charade that I'm happy for her relationships because I don't want her to wait for me but I just really don't care about the other people she's with at all. I'm just happy that she's happy but damn it hurts because I really love her and I know she loves me back even though this whole situation makes it seem like she doesn't and we're perfect for each other but nothing is right and I just don't know what we're doing or where this is going lmao

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noidea Crushes January 16, 2025 at 12:31 am 0 0