I feel sorry for my parents

I wish I had never been born. I feel deeply sorry for my parents because they are working so hard and spending their money on my university education, not knowing that I have stopped attending classes. However, that is not even the main reason I feel guilty.

What truly hurts me is the thought that they have a daughter who feels like a disgrace, and they do not even know it. I have already been an irregular student, yet they have never pressured me about college. In some ways, their understanding makes the burden feel even heavier, because they trust me and continue to support me despite everything.

Sometimes I think that if I had a sibling, I might not still be here. I have tried twice to end my life, yet somehow I am still alive. I am not as religious as my parents and grandparents, but perhaps there is a reason I remain here. Even so, that does not change the fact that I feel terrible about myself and still think about death from time to time.

At times, I wish I could reset my life to wake up one day and start over or to open my eyes and finally become the child they deserve. I love my parents. They are not perfect, and we are not a complete family, but they continue to work in their own way to secure my future. It feels shameful that their own daughter struggles to do the same for them.

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anonymous Other March 04, 2026 at 10:13 am 0 0