I feel betrayed

These days have been really difficult, there has been a lot of drama between K (my boyfriend), KA, M, J and O
Before I start, KA was someone I met over a game, I had no feelings for him but he was into me the same day that we had met basically, he was obsessed, would argue with me over little things, would get mad at me for anything and everything and made me feel really isolated, I had made it obvious I didn't like him and I had began becoming interested in K, time skip and K and I had begun to like each other , I asked him out on the 12th of April and he insisted we keep it a secret, I had agreed, then him and I matched profile pictures which really pissed off KA despite moving on and having a new girlfriend.

KA had twisted a lot of stuff that caused all this which has really threw me into a spiral of pain, depression and sadness.

But skipping the previous stuff, K and I had received messages from M that really was hurtful, he called me a two-faced bitch and stupid because apparently I had told KA that I liked K(bf) more than KA.
I had insisted that M and I call and he explain what was going on, he sent me an invite link to the group chat they were in and I joined, he said that I said to KA that I liked K more than KA, I had asked for proof and KA said he would stream our chatlogs, I stopped him and streamed it myself, there were no messages of me ever claiming something like that, they had all gone quiet, I had gone quiet as well because I was half asleep and had just woken up, M asked me if we were gonna keep discussing it and I said I didn't know what to say, he proceeded to tell me "why are you still here then"
anyway that happened, boyfriend proceeded to deal with them, they all got on his side after realising KA was a liar and lied about everything, boyfriend forgave them.
mind you I was still so upset and I (a female friend who had been comforting me throughout this entire process) had invited M to her server, then the same day, I had finally calmed down after struggling with depressive episodes, mental breakdowns, repeated anxiety attacks and had joined the voice chat with O, R and M, I was laughing about something.
M had deafened and I apologised to them for making it awkward and left the voice chat then R messaged me and we were speaking about it, he then asked M what that was about then told me M said "I just don't give af about what she asked, I feel like she is just attention seeking and I still don't like her because of what happened" to which i proceeded to sob on call to R and my boyfriend.
Today I found out K had forgave KA for what he did and I don't know how to feel about this.

In all honesty, I feel slightly betrayed (If that is the correct word) by I for inviting M into her server so fast after everything had happened, knowing what he said to me, how i felt and how i was still struggling, I feel betrayed by O for not even reaching out to me after what M said, he didn't even stand up for me and I thought he was my friend and I feel betrayed by K for forgiving KA so fast after what happened despite knowing it was 100% a fake apology and knowing how I have NOT recovered at all by everything happening.

I'm heartbroken, I feel betrayed and I don't know if I can trust them again, I don't know what to do

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anonymous Friends April 22, 2025 at 9:01 am 0 0