hello darkness, my old friend

it's been over a year now, i guess. but here i go again. i want to disappear. i haven't thought of this, in a serious manner, for a long time. i thought i was doing good. maybe i was. i tried my best to be a positive person, not to dwell on sadness. i was doing great. but when people around you make you feel like you're garbage of a person, a fool, and invisible, maybe not everything's great.

i don't hate the world. i love it with my whole heart. it's beautiful, with or without me. my family would probably feel lesstl to nothing when i'm gone. my friends will be alright. my classmates won't probably care. my cousins too, my relatives. i can still clearly remember what my cousin once said, "i didn't greet you (my sister because i thought you were -me". i can only think of my grandma and my niece. i think i'll hurt my grandma the most. she always tell me i'm her favorite granddaughter. my niece, she'll probably forget about me at some point.

i'm just tired of feeling like the worst, most unworthy, dumbest, most unfavorable person in the world. (or in my world lol). i've so much things i want to try, see. i just wish i was born rich. and stronger. a lot stronger.

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kiks Other July 29, 2025 at 10:52 am 1 0