glad i dont have kids

when i was a kid my mother would watch other people's kids. always favored them while she was horrible to me. nice to everyone else. everything revolved around whatever someone else's baby wanted and waht was good for them. i never had a childhood. even if she wasn't watching other people's kids, i still wasn't treated like a kid.

i've taken care of enough people and have worried enough about others throughout my life. i dont want kids. i see people my age in the stores with screaming kids and shit and i dont want that. even if i didnt have retarded white trash walmart brat kids, I still dont want kids right now.

i am JUST NOW, in my 30s, at a point where i am able to take care of myself and live without the constant fear and turmoil that im used to. didn't get to go to concerts and shit in my teens and 20s. can now. all the while the people my age who got to do that shit when they were younger are mostly now unhappy and with some offspring that they weren't really ready for.

this is my time. and goddamit, i hope that during this time i can eventually make it with a woman who looks like early career ke$ha. when i was in my early 20s, i had such a crush on this girl who looked like that. that woman is now livign that dull married life and stopped dressing like Hot Topic. Hopefully i can find someone my age who still has life in them and looks good and we can fuck. let us fuck for once. and not get pregnant and fuck some more. yeah.

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anonymous Other March 21, 2026 at 4:44 am 0 0