Can't i just do something?

I guess I'm kind of angry at myself, I don't have anyone who I can really tell that to. I feel tired often and in general I constantly feel shitty. I want to do something but I can't ever bring myself to do much more than the bare minimum. On weekends I spend practically all day in bed. Whenever I'm happy or doing something I enjoy I know I don't deserve it. Even when I do things, I suck so much I think they're not even worth doing. And like a few people check up on me but I don't ever have anything to tell them. I have no exciting news, I don't know what I want in life, I don't have any plans, ever. Why can't I just get up? Whenever I get like this I just think that getting up will get me somewhere, but I can't bring myself to get up. It's so frustrating. When did I become like this? I don't want to blame others because I know even if some people added to me being like this it's really my fault. I want to get better. I don't want to be this exhausted, I don't want to just be a waste of space, don't want to feel this bad.
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anonymous Other March 01, 2026 at 2:32 am 0 0