BRU

I've never felt so alone in my life as I do now, I don't talk to my mom or my family even though I live here. I only have maybe 3 kinda real friends but they are all bsfs and Im just kinda there they hangout all the time without me, skip class together to go hang out with our homeschooled friend without telling me. but then they text me when they are hungry and wanna go out but have no money. Im being used by them but I cant drop them I'll have no one. Im not even going to be able to have a grad party because I don't talk to enough people to have one I used to be one of the most popular people but then I quit band and they all stopped talking to me. I tried to say hi or hangout with them but its always straight face walk fast and ignore me or its leaving me on read/delivered. im tired of getting looked down on by them just because I quit band. Im not pretty either. I have died hair, stretch marks, bad style, glasses, acne, and I'm fat. All my friends are skinny, they took prom pics without me because my body just didn't look right with theirs. We go out and eat and they all complain after 3 bites that they are bloated and fat now and cant finish their food but then theirs me right there with an empty plate. The way they talk about themselves makes me feel worse..If they are bad..what am I? a monster? my friends are the most beautiful people ever they have perfect bodies, hair, skin, style, and they are smart. I just wish that people didn't care about that as much as they do. Its draining trying to be social when you're just put down. Its hard to get a bf looking like this my ex's all look good and Im the one who always breaks up with them because I feel like I'm too ugly for them and they deserve better than this. Im tired of this so so so much :(

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anonymous Other November 08, 2025 at 9:11 pm 0 0