Being too Envious

Recently I've become really envious of the people around me, mostly concerning schools and I hate it. I'm in high school and although I take more difficult classes than the average person (like alg 2 in the ninth grade) I just can't help feel envious of how easy school and class is for everyone else, not to mention that my elementary school friend, my cousin, and my second cousin attend elite, ivy league prep schools and take even more rigorous classes and take about APs (advanced placement courses) even in the ninth grade and I just don't feel like I'm good enough. Even people in my school already have their lives planned out and I don't have a clue what I'm doing so I don't know what classes to take to prepare for (like AP Bio for Med School). The only thing I'm good at is English which is fine at all, but when I see my family do amazing things; STEM competitions (cousin my age), first place in a history competition as a seven year old (against other states and against middle schoolers, my seven year old cousin), top in the nation for math competitions (sixth grade cousin, who is learning the same stuff as me, who is in high school) and more I just feel like a worthless piece of shit who has no future. I know that these people have lots of privilege (parents put them in these positions, otherwise they wouldn't be like this probably) but idk ... I literally have a B in math and I don't get anything so idk.... That's it. That's my stupid rant.

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anonymous School May 13, 2026 at 1:07 am 0 0