I HATE EVERYTHING AP edition

I hate myself for being so stupid. I was supposed to take an AP Psych test today. I was ready; I had studied and felt like I could get a 4, even a 5. But I just found out last night that I haven't paid for the test. But it thought I did. So I went to the counseling office and asked if I could pay, and they said no. Then I went to the first period. I was called down to the office, and on the way, I prayed and begged that I could take it, but I knew the answer would be no. So when I got to the fuck ass office, and they sent me back to talk to this office, factually, and my teacher. I had to paint a smile on and tell myself not to cry. As the office lady told me, I couldn't take it. The most I could do was just take it in my senior year. I told her I thought I paid for it, but it didn't matter. And I loved that class; the teacher was my favorite teacher ever. So they sent me back to class, and on the walk here, I started to cry like a dumbass. I would turn my face away from the people in the hall going somewhere, which, thank god it, was only a few people. Then I made it to the bathroom and cried. I hate everything and myself. Then I had to paint a smile and head to class, and here I am. Not to mention this whole week has made me so sad and angry. Fuck everything.

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Derek School May 12, 2026 at 10:43 am 0 0