Being raped and Assaulted sucks as a man

I'm so tired of it, the cycle building myself up to become sexual and actually have the psychological willpower to follow through and then being instantly reminded why I don't do sex, I hate it, I wish my bipolar depression didn't have me feeling hyper sexual despite the reminder and the fact that there are predators out there looking to prey upon to see rather fucking egoistically if they are the exception to your trauma like I put it on and open it up to for a reason seeking empathy as a person not as a fucking object/challenge for you to overcome, what kind of fucked up shit is that and if it makes me sound like a radical person I don't care there is not place where it is okay someone's boundaries to be treated like a fucking suggestion what is wrong with these people it's fucking disgusting so now instead of being interested I'm disgusted by it and fearful because people keep taking advantage of me, yes usually men but women too and it's people I've trusted and built relationships with before hand, is it me? Is there something I say or do that makes them think this way? I wish I knew because I'm starting to think that's the reason why this is my third time being SA'd/Raped and it's so fucking devastating.

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Daniel Body September 30, 2025 at 4:12 pm 1 2