alchemist

ok so i fell in love with this guy in my class that pushed me further into my spiritual journey just by being hot af, funny, and confident. i felt like i saw in him attributes i liked. so he indirectly inspired me and what transpired was me riding my bike nonstop for a few weeks just to get the sexual energy out, eating healthy foods or not at all, feeling more happy and confident than before and now i’m still on that timeline even though it didn’t work out with him. i am extremely magnetic lmao. i’m changing jobs because i randomly got called for my dream job that i forgot i applied to and got hired at the interview with higher than average pay. even though at the job i am at now i don’t like it, i know its something that has helped me learn a lot, how to be resilient , to see the psyche of the unhealed public played out in a setting, i’m squeezing all the knowledge i can out of my experiences there. anyway i don’t know why a lot of the guys that work there say hello but never talk to me. some of them do but mostly not lol. a lady asked me if there was orange juice with pulp in the back and i said i’d go check. lo and behold like 8 of the guys who look at me but never talk to me are back there just hanging out and the air gets thick with tension LMAO. i started laughing nervously and i just felt so weird like maybe they were just talking about me or something lmao. it was funny. i guess im an over explainer but its just funny , myself years ago not in an empowered confident state would have never believed so many dudes would care about my looks so much. like i get stared at like crazy and most of the time its just funny like i was eating in my car it felt like my car was made of glass the way dudes kept staring at me. this sounds really cocky but ive been through a lot to be this version of myself. it involves loving yourself so wholeheartedly that the healed version of you starts to show on the outside without you having to try. there are few who are brave enough to be fully authentic and vulnerable to the demons of fear, doubt, and judgement. but when you live from a place of love, fear can be loved into your super power, making you even hotter and sexier every time someone judges you. i’m telling you guys my life is changing like crazy. i’m a star and i’m shining this is only the beginning.

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estrella Funny July 27, 2025 at 12:10 pm 0 0