$u1$1de Ideation come in clutch

My manager is completely erasing the current hours i work in favor of a later start and ofc later finish. I rely on my mother to pick my anxious autistic ass up from work everyday. The later start and later finish would completely erase my mother as my main transportation and i would instead have to rely on public transportation- that ends 20 minutes after the late shift- idk abt yall but where i am, the public transport can be like an hour late or decide to just not come at all on the last round, asking others to take me, or taking an uber or something just aint sustainable and again, anxuous autistic ass right here. Anyways ive decided that if my manager doesnt let me do the inbetween shifts/makes me do even one later shift, im probably gonna resign from my job. Im doing an apprenticeship, so ill have to pay that off, then ill be jobless with no purpose and feel even more like a sack of shit than i already do, then ill start to sell all my books, dvds and soft toys and a bunch of my other cool stuff and then i just might kill myself, ya know? And ive been depressed and contemplating suicide for over a decade now and its really tiring having to go through the motions of pretending to be a funtional human. Anyways, hope that doesnt happen, but thats my worst case scenario, maybe ill be too pussy shit to go through with it, who knows.

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anonymous Work November 06, 2025 at 6:46 am 0 0