wtf

what the fuck.
what the actual FUCK was she thinking lying about her age and dating someone who's 10 years older than her
is she mentally okay because that is not normal at all
how attention deprived and lonely has she been her whole life that she feels the need to constantly message strangers online and then hurt them when they didn't deserve that
you've brought so much trauma and pain not only upon yourself but me as well
of course you would have to fucking leave at some point the age gap is ILLEGAL?! but what's worse is faking your own death
disgusting.
have some shame
some decency
some courage
break up and own up to your own mistake instead of being a pussy and making up a miserable lie
this is literally the most traumatic thing someone could go through how could you let the person you loved the most go through that? what were you thinking
this haunts me and i didn't even know her personally
i still stalk her page sometimes to check up on her and i see her mention your name
how she misses you
and still loves you..
it's fucking heartbreaking
and the guilt that I feel even though I did nothing?? WHY
why why why why why why why why why why did you do that
i wanna know what you were thinking during those months, the whole fucking year when you were living a lie
did it feel good? pretending to be someone you're not and faking your identity just so you could talk to some adults
make friends.. go ahead no one's stopping you but why can't you remember that you're a child. you weren't even a teenager yet do you know how crazy that is
how crazy of an asshole you were and still are
this is me finally allowing myself to be angry after months of feeling pity and sorrow and guilt for both of you
i'm tired
it's draining me
your past is holding me captive
and now we're both its victim
you say you're scared and you don't want to hurt me like you did to your exes
but after what you did and everything i know you're capable of doing to them? i should be the one who's scared and honestly i am
i love you and that scares me
I hate how much i care about you and love you even though you continue to hurt me
these days you're acting so distant and mean
I've tried to be there for you and am always trying but it hurts sooo much
you're not letting me in u want me to open up and im trying as well you keep all your feelings a secret
how many times do I need to try to communicate with you before I lose it and lose you
you're not communicating. you've changed so much. it's affecting me. It's frustrating and i feel devastated because of you

i know that you're hurting and you regret everything i know that all too well
but it's just too much i can't even tell you how much it has affected me
your sadness has seeped into me and taken over my whole being
why can't you just learn to accept what you did and forgive yourself
i feel sorry for you and i want you to get better but i don't think you've moved on yet
and it's hurting us
if you care about me or our relationship at all you'll move on
you'll stop blaming yourself and doing stupid shit like that again

stop talking to your adult friends and lying to them when they're clearly under the impression that you're an adult UR NOT

stop pretending like you love me if you haven't moved on from her

i need you to realise that you're ruining your own life by being sad

i'll always look after you and be there for you but you need to help yourself i can't do it for you

i swear to be patient and love you unconditionally but please love yourself more

get your life together.
or else i'm not sure we'll last

i love you but i don't know

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anonymous Relationships August 12, 2024 at 9:50 am 1 1