complicated and confused

We have transferee student this school year. She's a woman and I know she's not straight the way she acts. Fast forward, we are being close to each other. We actually had a small group of friends or circle of friends. I am entertaining someone that time, let's call him as hiro. He likes me and I dont know if i can believe with that because i already built a trust issues with men. He gave me some mixed signals or so whatever. Well, he's fine inside and out. But he knew as well that I dont like him, na I am just getting to know him or just give it a try, I guess?

Back to that transferee student, let's call her xe na lang. One of my friend na kasama rin sa circle of friends namin confessed to me that she's starting to like xe na. She's bisexual. I remember xe told me that she's straight pero sabi ni jean, hindi raw, iba raw talaga na fe-feel niya.

One day, she's leaning on my shoulder, watching Xe and Lei eating their lunch together while laughing. (Sabay-sabay kaming kumakain ng circle ko every lunch) Jean was hurt that time. Xe told us na she's admiring someone sa classroom daw. Kaya ang lala mag overthink ni Jean na baka si Lei yon.

She's starting to avoid Xe to move on. Sabi ko mag confess muna siya bago niya i-avoid kasi nag tatanong na sa akin si Xe kung may nagawa ba siyang masama.

Xe is clingy... especially to me ? I guess so. pero clingy naman siya sa lahat. mas malala lang sakin.

Naging okay na sila ni Jean since pinilit ko talaga si Jean na mag cofess pero naka move on na raw that time.

And suddenly, nag karoon ng issue sa circle namin (di ko na babannggitin kung ano) kaya nahati circle namin. Ako, Ysa, Lei and Xe na lang ang magkakasama this time.

Mas nagiging close na kami ni Xe. I told her stop yelling and she did it. We even argued in math problem tapos nag tampo siya pero nag susuyuan naman. Sobrang clingy rin niya. And suddenly, im starting to feel different which is i know it was wrong.

I decided to stop Hiro in entertaining me bacause it's a big red flag if we continued and what if he expects? lalo na ngayon na im confused na. hindi ko pa totally ciniclaim na i like her kasi ayoko. nagustuhan siya ni Jean and Jean was my friend.

Kumalat na gusto ni Jean si Xe, i dont know how. ysa murmured something to me after she heard those rumors. "kahit ako ica-cut off ko si xe kapag nagkagusto siya sa iba e" i wanted to cry and yell out loud. my heart was aching. I dont know why but i know that i was hurt. this means i like xe but i cannot because ysa likes her as well.

ysa was crying and i am comforting her, she's starting to give signs to xe which is she keep refusing. ysa just coming back to me crying. i ask her kung sino ba sa room crush niya, ang sabi niya lang, mas maliit sa kaniya, matalino, masama ugali and pasaway.

rosie told me as well that it might be me. "naalala ko non, inaway ako ni xe kasi na-offend ka raw sa jokes ko" she said. baka naman protective lang since i am her friend?

i decided to avoid xe para matigil feelings ko sa kaniya. i dont want to ruin our friendship kaya i want this feelings na mag fade.... (to be continued)

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shane Dating January 30, 2026 at 10:43 am 0 0