Why can't I be done?

Why cant I be done? I'm so tired of suffering. Im so tired of pretending I'm fine. My life has been hell since I was eight years old. I'm tired of everyone expecting me to be fine. I'm not fine. My father was a very sick man. He got taken away by the cops for being abusive. Physical, emotional, mental. Hell, he was pervert too to top it all off. I told my therapist he was touching me in ways that my friends said a father shouldn't and he was taken away. It was my fault. The only man that understood me, and I got him taken away. For 10 long years I've been miserable. Every friend I've ever made have eventually left me at some point. My mother hates me. I have horrible mental and physical issues. My dog/best friend died a few weeks ago. I hate school yet I'm forced to go to a college that I despise. No financial aid. I'm already in debt and I've hardly begun adulthood. Im all alone. Don't know how to talk to people. Scared to talk to people because they all eventually leave. So why can't I be done? Isn't this enough reasons to tap out? I have no future. No reason to be alive. I've tried so many times to die. My body won't let me. I'm so tired of being alone but I dont know how to fix that. Life won't get better. I've heard that since I was 8. Life isn't getting better and neither am I. Hell isn't a place we go when we die, it's a place we live through. So am I fine? Yeah. Sure. Let's go with that.

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anonymous Other October 11, 2025 at 12:57 am 0 0