Where is my period....why am i so stressed out....

i am super stressed out, im someone who is really sensitive. life has been giving me non stop pitballs, and i was expecting a promotion this year, i did the work, i spoke for myself, i managed everything very well, i took care of myself, and yet i didnt get it, i lost my masters exam date and had to cancel that too. because it was too much to do altogether! i began gym last year did the work, took care of myself, and yet . . . . . it all feels like crumbling down. i missed my period last month and im so worried about it! whenever i go to the gym, my body takes too much time to recover now, so i stopped, i couldnt take out the money as well. i even tried a dating app last month, it was too weird and felt very real and annoying. i dont wanna shave my body hair, im too traditional like that, what if the guy doesnt like me irl? i hate rejection, i want a genuine love story, not someone who cheats me, leaves me for someone prettier, and deep down makes me feel more insecure and unloved. i feel unloved. by my own self and i dont know how to heal it? i dont know how to get through something so subtle and so out of my control. maybe i am a control freak, but lately nothing seems to be going my way. i have to managed multitude of things and ive been saved but also cursed in so many ways. now since last week, im on homeopathy again and my physical activity has reduced significantly, my hormones have been off the charts since last week, i feel so low AND TIRED always. my friend, dm has been very distant lately and not in a good way, in a fake jealous typa way that i dont like it, i feel like ive been having a wrong image of the person in my head.. u know like i just feel so out and about. this year i realized that instead of actually solving the problem, i befriended peopl who complained about the problem, not a very great thing cuz wheres the growth mindset? wheres the grounding? wheres the karmic accpetance? i realise i never actually had a deep bond with dm, and i realized it 2-3 times, and ive been checking on it therefore. life feels stagnant in a bad way.. ive been doing reiki everyday but it doesnt seem to be getting any better. if only my period comes, i feel tis cycle will restart. then i can figure out why boys make me feel so icky. and scared. my exams start tomorrow and i dont know how to manage that as well . . .im gonna start studying now.

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anonymous Other March 09, 2026 at 6:28 am 1 0