what to do...

Like i'm just so fucking unhappy, and I keep saying this over and over in my head but I really am. Like I'm not the size I want to be and sure I have a good body but why can't anyone understand that I'm just not fucking happy with the way that I look? I feel like on the outside I'm happy yk im doing shit I've been hoping for, for a while and now I finally got it but I feel like i've strayed away from God and all of the stuff that I was working towards and I just don't understand why that's all I can think about. It's so bad but I just want to let go of all of that and just enjoy life, I just wanna be free. Even with that incident, all of the trauma. I can't help but want to go back, like I want to drink, smoke, BE IN A RELATIONSHIP. Like UGHHH and then people are like well things happen when they do and if its not meant to be then its not. LIKKE LET ME BE IRRATIONAL!!! I'm just so fucking tired of being alone and he's so fine. and that personality is so fucking cute but I can't tell people shit about us because the minute you mention it, the relationship or wtv goes down hill. and I told my friend about him and now idk I feel like I don't really like him anymore WHICH FUCKING SUCKS BC HES LITEEALlY SO CUTE AND FUNNY.

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anonymous Dating April 16, 2025 at 11:59 pm 0 0