To the woman I will someday call my Wife

Where do I start how about the fact that if you could see me now you would cry I am so lost without someone in my life that I take gabapentin not only for my feet, but to also cover up all of the pain I'm going through. I am so afraid that I will never find you that it breaks my heart 1000 times worse than a person that has had their heart broken would feel. I have tried to be the man that you could be proud to call your bf and then your husband but this world just does not want men like me anymore and it hurts to be invisible ...maybe that is how you feel as well and I'm feeling your pain as well. If we do not find each other on this earth we will be together when God calls us home and I will be waiting for you that is a Promise I will never Break. I have tried so hard and I feel like I have failed even though I've never done anything to hurt anyone. I always tell people I am not afraid of Death and the only reason for that is I know that this world will not be able to stop me and you after we have been freed from its chains and lies please know that this love I have in me will always shine for you even to the day I close my eyes for the last time...and I hope with all of my heart that if I dont find you by that time that God points over to a tree in heaven and your there waiting for me because even though all of the pain Im going through right now ...I never gave up even to the end.


please if your going to eave hate comments dont bother you will never understand what it is like to be missing something in your heart and have it breaking because that thing you are missing is the only thing that matters in life to you ....and if your going to attack me because I said the word God go ahead it does not matter I will never allow this world to take the only father I have ever known away from me....even if I am told it will cost me my life.....take my life and all your doing is sending me home and my soulmate will be there waiting ....that makes death nothing but a bus ticket back to the woman I am missing with all of y heart.

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anonymous Relationships January 22, 2025 at 1:14 am 0 0