tired of fake friends

i really hate having friend groups. i feel like i am always the one that ends up being the odd one out. and its always with no explanation---when i ask, they say everything is fine but they have a group chat without me and they do things without me and they all facetime each other and never call me. they say lame excuses like "oh we didn't think you'd like to call" or "oh it was a last minute thing." the part that frustrates me the most is their whole "rules for thee, but not for me" mindset. when i point out their hypocrisy they continue to just shift the blame on me. its so extremely frustrating. its even more annoying because we are all in our 20s and they act like they're in high school. when we are out and i want to check out a store that they don't want to, they always leave me behind alone. but when one person in the group wants to check something out they go with no hesitation. they avoid eye contact or talking to me when we're in class together. it really hurts my feelings and i try to talk about it to them but its always like talking to a wall that just blames it on you. i know its best to just move on and not let it get to me but its hard when you're living on your own away from home. they weren't like this when we all met but now its so much distance. i've told them if they don't want to be my friend then that's fine and just to tell me. but, they are just so fake to my face. i know how fake they can be because i see them act fake with people they don't like in our class. they'll talk the most shit about them but then to their face, be so friendly and sweet to them. it's actually so psychotic. it sucks when i ask anyone to hang out and they always have a reason to not hang out, but then i see that they're all hanging with each other. it's actually so mean girl and i really fucking hate it. i hate feeling like i'm in high school again and i hate their avoidant nature. they even all planned a big trip abroad without me and talk about it right in front of me. they always say "oh never suffer alone, you can always call" but when i do, they are suddenly busy and not free. it's like they say that stuff to make themselves believe that they are good friends and to use it against me when i start to distance myself (rather, just giving them the same energy that they give back to me). i hate that they paint me out as the bad guy or immature friend, when in reality i am just treating them back to how they are treating me. i know that's a part of life i need to accept and i know that not everyone will like me, but it just sucks that i thought these people were my close friends and were so kind and sweet to me but now its just radio silence. i know they're are not my friends and i've been slowly trying to accept that. i just needed to rant.

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anonymous Friends February 24, 2026 at 4:38 pm 0 0