The Best Part of my Life is also my Biggest Regret

No matter how much I try to change, my girlfriend still sees me for the same horrible person I was. But I can’t get mad at her no? I’m the reason she has anxiety and feels physical pain in the morning. I used to hide things from her, I used to get too close to girls unknowingly and I would rant to friends behind her back. I can’t even fucking imagine doing that anymore now. Although I try to change, I don’t blame her for treating me as the same guy still. Honestly I wasn’t made for this. I don’t know wtf to do now anymore really. Every time I try to do better, every chat just goes back to the shit I used to do. I wanna genuinely try to keep doing better, but if I had the choice? I would’ve rather have her never meet me. She said it multiple times before and although she said she never meant all those times, I never disagreed. We were a mistake. It’s so easy to get mad at her every argument we have but then I can’t really cuz I’m still the bad guy after all. It doesn’t matter if I’m trying to do better, I was a shit boyfriend then and all that still applies to me. I just wanted to rant about it. Maybe I’ll always be shit no matter what I do.

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J Dating July 04, 2025 at 10:07 am 0 0