six years

i’ve been with my boyfriend six years now. we’ve grown a lot and i genuinely love him. he’s hilarious, awesome, sweet, caring, just a beautiful person i will always want in my life. the only thing that strains me in our relationship is feeling like his family hates me. they’re in his life a lot. both sides of his family and it just seems i have this vast collection of times i’ve felt they hate me. i don’t want to care. i wish it was just me and him focusing on our love but it seems i have to come to terms with his family being in our life. so yeah i wish i could just wipe the slate clean on that, i guess i can right now and just forget about all the times in the past. anyway another thing is that he doesn’t care about my pleasure when we’re having sex. 100% of the time he comes to my like 15%. he has made me come before. it’s probably been like 4 or 5 months or more. he’s so hot and he has a massive dick like probably above average but it doesn’t matter because he can just come and my enjoyment is optional. it sucks that i have a partner for life but the only time i come is when im masturbating. it hurts my feelings that i’ve told him multiple times and of course it’s just easier to stick your dick in without a care i guess. when we first started dating i was soaking wet for him every day, every moment even. it would soak through my underwear and pants and he actually kissed me for hours and fingered me and we’d just take our time with foreplay it was awesome. but slowly over time it’s hard to even get wet anymore. i haven’t felt my body get the same feeling in a very long time. it doesn’t feel good feeling unsexy and unworthy of pleasure to ur boyfriend you know? like i would looooove if he kissed all over my body, my neck is a sensitive af sweetspot that feels so good. my whole body is craving touch and kisses and if he played with my boobs and butt more that would be amazing but he will just squeeze it like twice, get horny, make me suck his dick, then just fuck me until he comes. it’s so hurtful that he doesn’t care about how good i could genuinely feel. i am a beautiful woman but i just haven’t felt sexually desired in so long that it feels lonely. like he just uses me to get off and it doesn’t feel like im special or anything to motivate himself to make me feel good. idk. it’s just those two things that frustrate me. his family comes over a lot, they don’t like me, feeling vulnerable and lonely because i know he loves his family so im just alone in that sense and alone in my sexual pleasure because he doesn’t care. idk.

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