S.F.A

hi sof, gua tau lu gabakal baca ini, but if u do, i hope you know, gua cuma mau lampiasin semuanya biar gua ngerasa tenang dan gabakal lagi nangis tentang ini (even tho i might WKWK) because it's all pressured inside me and it keeps getting worse

gua udah move on, yes, and it feels better. but the guilt of what i did and the situationship i give for us was very very very painful and that i cant fix it makes it even worst for us. gua pengen gitu sekali aja, SEKALIII AJA, gua bisa pegang tangan lu, say i'm sorry sincerely, one last kiss, and a hug that i really want. gua cuma mau a proper goodbye, i dont mean for continuing everything we started, i just want a proper goodbye that feels right to me.

iya kita putus baik", we did. but how things went from good to worst hurts even more. ngeliat lu bahagia udah move on, have you ever think about the possibilities if we're still together now? i bet u never do, because of my mistakes. dan gua nyesel, NYESEL BANGET, i did that back then. i yelled at u online that november after i finished masa basis and IT HURTS SO MUCH.

ever since that day, you never become the same to me. never that beautiful girl i ever loved, i ever met, and most of me accepted it, but my remaining person cant just accept it for how painful it is as it was because of my own doing and i cant undone it, i cant fix it.

i admit this is the worst breakup i ever had. gua gapernah bisa minta maaf atas semuanya, perbaikin semuanya, seenggaknya penuhin janji" gua. those rings, those polaroid pictures, those canvas u drawed on, those money you spent for me (and vice versa), those precious time, those marks in the corner of the rooftop where we used to have time together, those silent hugs under the storm, it hurts me too much to remember that all of them disappears because of my own actions AND IT HURTS SO BAD THAT I CANT EVEN HEAL IT EASILY BY JUST CHANGING PARTNERS AND JUST MOVING ON. gua gapernah bisa sampein ini BECAUSE YOU PASSED THROUGH IT (and you hate me for it).

gua sayang sama lu, sof. i moved on, but you're remarkable, too good for me, yet i wasted those opportunities the last 3 years ago. i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm so so so so so sorry i did it. i never mean it. god, i wish i can just hug you and cry now.

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Adriel Relationships February 04, 2026 at 10:28 am 0 0