Relationships suck ass

Im done. Im done trying to chase love from people who leave me questioning myself and/or feeling bad about who i am.

Im a good person. Its your closed off asses who are the problem. My longest "relationship" was around ten years. Lots of mixed signals and bullshit and me chasing the idea of wanting it to work. Like a junkie, chasing the euphoric high i had when i first fell in love with her, like i could experience it again and this time it be good. Never fucking happened.

I realize after being rejected today that i still pretty much chase that same high. The women i try to talk to are objectively nicer than my big ex, but are still shut off emotionally, and really dont even seen like they are serious about being with anyone.

Maybe i need to just fucking not worry about it. Like what the hell would my life be if i were not single right now?

Id be with someone and we'd call and text each other. Hang out on the weekends. Lots of time spent probably in silence at my house or hers, as we each watch things on our phones or play video games or whatever. Then one nice moment of me feeling love when i get to hug her, then im left hoping that i could have the love and closeness i want, and it probably would never happen. Even if we got married and fucked twice a year.

My viewpoint on marriage is fucked, but really this is how it is. Im better off alone any way.

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Scott Pilgrim Relationships November 22, 2024 at 3:09 am 0 1